From: <sakusaku0319@sp.hkt48.jp>
Date: August 13, 2014 - Wednesday 10:03 PM
Subject: My first long post in a while
The FNS Song Festival has ended!
Today, I kept going back and forth between happiness and worry.
I’m grateful from the bottom of my heart that I’m able to sing like this as a member of senbatsu, thanks to all of your help.
Up until now, I’d always be frustrated while watching TV.
Thinking to myself over and over “When do I get to be on that side?”
Even before HKT had made their debut, I was unbelievably frustrated.
I
wonder why, I’d think “That’s amazing”, but I guess I couldn’t help
from also thinking “Why am I on this side?” while watching. *laughs*
So
I’m always really nervous whenever I appear as a senbatsu member, and
after it’s over, I’m restless the whole time wondering how it went.
After I appear on TV, I always receive messages from my grandma and cousin.
"Saachan, you were so cute!"
Or, my cousin is still really young so,
she’ll send me messages like “I’m going to brag to my friends at school that you’re my cousin!”
She’s so cuteee.
But, she told me that her friends at school don’t believe her *laughs*
Even
though I have so many things like this to be grateful for, maybe I’m
too greedy thinking “How can I be shown more?” or “How can I stand out?”
But, my dream is still far off in the future.
I can’t be satisfied with where I am now, I need to keep going forward!
I can think about it positively today!
I’ll work even harder so that I can be in senbatsu again!
Please support me!